Im trying to post more frequently than once a month.

here's this post: im going to be doing the breast cancer Race for the Cure in May with miss Devan.  Here is the link to my personal pledge page http://rfcphl.convio.net/site/TR/Race/General?px=1515501&pg=personal&fr_id=1030&et=ye5hF3gXxMpb-t4aF6c2Ww..&s_tafId=26542
iffffff you are interested in donating :)

Also, things are good here.  Im off work for a few weeks in between teaching jobs.  Im hoping someone gives me some good news about a permanent job sometimes soon. :\

someone just reminded me that I havent been on in a while...again. :\

Ive been in a slump lately, emotionally. Lethargic, unmotivated... wanting to eat all the time.

I went through a lot with my mother's surgery.

then i recently had to switch teaching positions.
Plus school.

Just been under lots of stress

So Im making concerted efforts to deter all that.

Other than that things are good. R and I celebrated our 4 year anniversary this week. yay us!

ummmm Mom is doing great.  Healing and finally back to herself.  She's been through the wringer and she isnt done yet, but at least she is feeling normal again :)
 

so, feeling better.
However, my voice has gone somewhere. if you've seen it please send to me c/o my larynx?
kthx.


Although I have a broken tooth. It, itself, does not hurt, but it's irritating my tongue in a bad way. Boooo.  it's making it difficult to speak, so I guess I better shut the hell up.

Met and internet Friend yesterday.  Miss MellyG from the fooboard.  She is a cutie and was so happy to hook up with her. It was such good times!!

Work is crazy. Tried to throw a student out of my class today but he wouldnt leave so I got a dean to come. he STILL wouldnt leave so the Dean picked up the whole desk and carried him out of my room.  Win.

Aside from that, im ok, thanks. :)

Ive been sick the last couple of days with a bad bad cold.

On the mend, but I missed work today.

I got a facebook message from one of my co-workers saying my boys missed me and that i was their "favorite Teacher"

Squee!
They like me!  They really like me!! <3

Otherwise, Im doing alright.

I need to start preparingfor my Praxis exams.  I was supposed to take them on Saturday but I moved one to April and the other I cancelled since I am planning on changing my major to Special Education as opposed to Elementary.


So staying home today I watched some DVR'd shows and burned a few DVDs.  I burned hte movie Choke on DVD but it woulndt play on our PS3. DAMNIT.  Im so pissed.  I wanted to check it on our DVD player, but no avail as Mr. Genius never hooked the bastard back up.

Men.

ok, im off now. Just wanted to check in with my girlies and say Hi!  I love you guys!!! <3<3

I dont have any plans for tonight.  We may be going to the sister-in-laws but maybe not.

 

This is the first year in a long time that I have had no plans on New Years, and really...I'm ok with that.  I would have liked to maybe go out for a nice Dinner with the Mister and come back and ring it all in with the kids, but sitting home all night and doing nothing sounds just fine to me.

I'm getting so old. So much has happened in this last year that i just can't wrap my head around it. All of my friends have moved away, my sister moved away from her husband, my mother got cancer, R and I almost split up, I lost my job, I started teaching...it's had it's ups and downs but it's been a crazy one...

I'm looking forward to the changes 2009 will bring....with the exception of my mother not having breasts. :\
 

I think Im passed the funk.

Seriously, there was a week there where no matter what anyone said, I just felt completely and utterly worthless and alone.
Not sad.  Just resigned to the fact that i was nothing.

it was a weird feeling.

Im feeling better today though. 

I've had a busy week. Work has been so crazy.  Ive been really having to crack down, and that's so not like me.  They just get too wild.

Monday Im making 'gingerbread' houses with them (using graham crackers instead though). We are all looking forward to that.   We are modeling them after Thomas Jefferson's Monticello, as that is the period we are studying right now.

Also watching Willy Wonka (original). 

GO ME!

today is one of those days where i look in the mirror and think "wow, you're kinda nothing"

Nothing happened to make me feel this way.
I just do.

Im just trying to get it out of my system. Not trying to fish, just trying to expunge it at every chance i get.
I dont like feeling this way.

so today has been interesting.

A couple of my students hate me. That's cool. Im not a member of their fanclub either.
It's actually kind of fun.  Gives me practice in the discipline portion as i rather enjoy writing those little peckers up.

I'm sorry. that's not a very teacherly thing to say...


but they are little peckers.


Anywho....things are doing.  not bad.  nothing major happening right now. Just chilling.

Trying to LJ More.

I'm switiching my Master's Major to Special Ed.  Fortunately all but one of the classes I've already taken, can be put towards it. I'llonlyhave to take one extra class.  W00t.

I can use my school that i work at as my student teaching credit for SpEd.  Of course, this is assuming they are going to hire me full time in the fall, which I think they will as they love me. 

Ummmmmm that's all.

Here I am!  An a card from my dear_ishtahar_  has reminded me that I NEED LJ.  Lots been going on since we last spoke...


1) I'm teaching!  Which is what I last posted about but now I can tell you...I LOVE IT!  I Made 100% the right career move here.  This is my niche, no doubt.   My students are rough (adjudicated delinquents...zoinks!) but really just dumb kids in bad situations.  They Love "Miss P" for the most part.  And I adore them (even the ones that make me want to bash my head in the wall). 

The only real issue is...they are teenaged boys...who basically are doing jail time...so they dont get to see young women very often.  This lends itself to some very inappropriate flirtation from them.  I've been asked for my number at least 100 times. One student took it way too far (grabbed my arms trying to kiss me) and I had to write him up...needless to say he hates me now hahaha. *rollseyes*

Overall though, they are just kids with learning disabilities and really shitty homelifes who made some really bad decisions. 



2)  Things with me and R...well about a month ago I told him I was leaving him. 

He was gutted and asked if we could talk about things and asked me to give him another chance and went over and over all the things he wanted to change in himself.  So I gave him a second chance and so far things have Improved.  I feel happier now.  We still hit little snags but nothing like before.  I did tell him that if things reverted back tothe way they had been (us fighting a lot, him being judgemental and difficult to talk to) i would leave: no discussion.




3) Probably the biggest thing that has happened since I last spoke with you...My mother has been diagnosed with Breast cancer.  She is fine. They have caught it very very early, but it is in both breasts.  This means she must get a bilateral mastectomy.  She is scheduled for January 16th.  I was completely shattered when she told me about the first breast (found out about that one a week before the other, as the second was NOT caught in the mammo).  I know it's caught early and she will be fine..just not something you want to associate with your mother.

My mom is awesome though. She can take anything on the chin and come back fighting.  Basically she is veiwing this as a chance at a free tummy tuck, bless her (They will be taking tissue from her belly to rebuild her breasts).




Soooo that's all for me really. In other news, my sister has officially left her husband. She and the kids moved into a new house (so he and is girlfriend could move into the old one...fuckface). She takes him to court for child support on the 16th of this month, since he refuses to pay (but yet, still buys himself a brand new flat screen...shithead)  Then when she can afford it, she will file for divorce and just be done with him.  Right now, Money is stupidly tight.


Im going to go check on you all now. I've missed you!! <3

( Please read this email i just sent. )
:-)

wowza.
How you all doing?

Im doing alright. Still unemployed. Booyah.
Im actually going through the process of getting approved for substitute teaching. Huzzah!

I'm also going to school. And that's awesome.
I've been doing the stay-at-home mom bit.

I have had a few bots of depression. I'm not used to being out of work and not interacting with adults on a daily basis.  It's hard sometimes and sometimes it's awesome (like when I have stuff I want to watch and I dont want to wrestle with anyone for the remote!)


Well im going to go read some of ya'lls updates seeing as how I haven't in a LONG TIME!!!

Miss you!!
xx

Oh yeah. that would be me.

:cool:

ok so I've decided that, for now, I'm going to focus on Substitute Teaching for the time being. imma not going to get into details but this could end up being the best decision possible.


So do review my last weekish...


Thursday - Drove to Rochester with the family. WORST.DRIVE.EVER. Ridiculous traffic. R threatened to turn around like 10 times. Once we hit New York traffic cleared. Smooth sailing, We were so relieved when we got there we were almost euphoric

Friday - laid by pool with my family. A million kids there. Got a burn on my shoulders pretty ugly. Went out to dinner that night at our usual haunt when we go to Roch. was DELICIOUS.

Saturday - My Birthday! Went to go see my Poppy. He's had several surgeries recently and just turned 92. remarkably he looks amazing. That man is going to outlive the cockroaches! Spent more time at pool...just me and my little fam. Got more burned cause I'm a genius. Had a nap. Got a bunch of texts and phone calls from friends and whatnot. Went to sisters for Pizza, wings, and cake. DELICIOUS. My mother had already given me my presents (clothes & Money) but she wanted me to open something so she gave me this cute Mackenzie & Childs cookie jar. My sister gave me a necklace. R's gift was the trip to Roch and he got me a cake. :)

Sunday - BEST DRIVE EVER.  took us 5.5 hours (on thurs. took us 8.5) We were home by 1 pm.  Spent the day relaxing. R made dinner.

Monday - Cleaned. Laundry. Job Searching.  The usual.  Made homemade Fried Chicken for donner. yum!

Tuesday - Lunch with old boss.  She took me out for my Birfday.  Was nice.  Hung out in the old office with my friends for a bit.  It was naahce.  Came home. Filed for unemployment.  did more job searching.

Today  i've actually gotten a lot done.  I have to call the city to see about a program they might have for would-be teachers that might be right up my alley.

Overall doing pretty good.  Imma gonna have a Blue Moon (Cheers Lizzy!) and just relax...

So the last couple of days have been weird. Boring. (I've cut because they are rather long...)
( Day 1 )
( Day 2 )
( And then something really weird happened... )

I swear this is the weirdest week ever.

Hello my lovely ladies.

First off, thanks all so much for the supportive words.

Secondly: I'm fine!

Or will be once the shock has completely settled and I've made my peice.

My Firm decided that it's marketing department was too big.  As my position was a new one and the highest paid Admin position by quite a bit, they decided to trim may fat. (as well as the fat of  6 of my colleagues and friends)

The bastards.

But all is not lost.I received a pretty ok Severance package which will leave me good for about a month as well as the ability to claim unemployment (which together will put me at making almost twice what I WAS making for a few weeks...not to shabby!)

Furthermore, I've already started applying for new jobs.  3 jobs at Temple University (the university i currently attend) just last night!

in acrtuality, this happening was a godsend because i started to doubt my path in life.  I knew I wanted to be a teacher but I was starting to be seduced by the hefty salaries of a corporate world.  This happening knocked me back into focus and I am even more determined to get my degree and start teaching.  R is even more behind me than before.

Well wish my luck, my pretties!!

<3

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand....








I'm Fired.

So i'm freaking out a little right now.

it appears there are some mass firings going on.  Not sure of it, but someone who have become very close friends with these past few months was just called up to an office in HR (the office of someone who recently fired ANOTHER friend of mine) and if he gets fired I shall be very put out.

Seriously, he has become easily one of my 2 best friends here. 


Furthermore, it seems as if several other people (all whom I find quite agreeable and enjoy working with) are on the chopping block.

My one boss wont even look at me.  If I ask her if she is ok, she just shakes her head and yes "yep." really quick.  She actually looked like she was crying.

None of this is substantiated yet.  All conjecture.
But it's freaking me out.

What am I doing right now?  
Well I'm munchin on some wasabi peas, thankyouverymuch.
And it's gone right up my nose, it has.
But man is it good.

I'm trying desparately to lose weight, but to no avail. i lost 6 lbs last time I checked - but since then I haven't been on the right track.  No will power!

I NEED HELP!

My weight has gotten incredibly out of control.  I am so out of shape, it's not only embarassing but a little scary. I dont want to end up like one of those people you see on TV who can't get out of their bed without a forklift.



Annnnnd someone just brought in a peanutbutter chocolate cake that they made and of course I had to have a slice.

HOW DO YOU SAY NO TO THAT!!!???